Leave Me The Fuck Alone, Im Mourning - Craig Xen

depression make a nigga wanna blow my fucking head clean off this whole neck of mine, so many times i contemplate, bringing my life to a end but i just can't do it, right, here for a fucking reason, lil niggas lookin' up to me when i'm speakin', irresponsibility i'm sending them a negative message, i question why they looking up to me as if i'm their parents, it's apparent that i'm broken, started smokin' again, duckin' shows and i feel i'm losing focus, use to have a certain type of drive, since vinny died it's been a fight for me to try and stay alive, wouldn't wanna pass this emptiness upon my people, i know that they miss me like i miss him, i'm reminiscing on the glisten from his motorcycle, as he pull up ready to dump on anybody with his rifle, vinny was the best friend i never had, and the closest thing to dad, more mad that he's gone and glad that i met him, should be happy he's in heaven but i'm fucking selfish, need his help, man i need his help desperately, went and up'd the anti-depression dosage i need, but i'm closer now to death than i've ever been, went and etched a life wish in to my perfect skin, that's a sin that i intentionally took upon, i'm mad at god so i'm destroying his creation now